Ok so it has beena bit since i wrote. But at least i can type with bith hands right now!!!! So many things have happened since i last wrote anything, but... i really don't want to get into it very much. Lets just say i have entered back into the house that truely drives me insane. I've tried to clam myself and to distract myslef from the thoughts that i am being annoyed out of my brain. But i guess thats what a person gets when you end up living with relatives again. It just give me more of an excuse to go fishing ;).

Here it is five almost six days after my surgery and i am about to pull my hair out. The odd thing is that it is not because of my shoulder. I don't know what they did to me on that operating table or after but my back is so swollen and tender. I have a really hard time sleeping. Every time i lay down my back goes into spasms and there is not much i can do. My shoulder itself is doing good.
I almost forgot to say that Tayler Reanne Bowers got to come home on monday also. After being in the hospital for barely over a week she is fine enough to come home.
Well i guess this is all fo the moment. its a little hard to type just yet.

So here it is, three more days till my shoulder surgery. I am dreading it very much but will be glad to get it over with. Then Monday i get the news that i may have to have surgery on my neck also. The doctor thinks that there could be some bad problems if i don't get it fixed pretty soon. Course this doctor is pretty decent. I was told to go see an ortho doc to have them look at it and confirm that surgery is needed.
I am a bit late in doing so but i need to welcome Taylor Reanne Bowers to the family. She was born Saturday March 29th. She only weighed 4 lb 5oz. and 18 inches long. Such a tiny little thing. She is still at the hospital. As soon as she passes all of her tests she can come home. We are all hoping it will be soon. I do hope that i have spelled her name correctly. If not i will fix it when i find out.
I have been so conflicted lately. I am not exactly sure what to do and it's killing me. I know in my head what would more than likely be the best option to take. But my heart and a small part of my mind disagree. I honestly feel like i would be leaving my family behind. Then i think that,.. i don't know.