Well here it is, the first month of the new year is almost gone and i wonder where it has gone. I got the lovely news that i need to have surgey on my right sholder. It was just jan 26 of last year that i had surgery on my left sholder. I did the same thing to the right one. I am wondering what is gonna happen to the left one since it still is not back to what i consider its best. I also wonder if i can handle going thru all the pain and aggrivation again but then i remember all the pain and aggrivation i went thru for three years before i had the left one fixed. They just had to give me the cortizone shots today in it too. I had forgoten exactly how bad it hurts when they do that. I am so worried about how i am gonna live. How am i gonna get money. i hope my disability comes thru soon. Shit must mail papers tomorrow. sometimes i wonder if i might be in the early stages of alzhemeirs since i forget the most simple things. But i think it is just me worring. well since the stupisd neighbors decided to turn their radio down now i am gonna try to go to bed and possibly get some sleep. If it was only possible. Course i guess the dogs liked the music cause now they are raising a protest and barking at the neighbors. Just joking i know they are telling me that the neighbors are out and about. i was actually thinking earlier of a way to just turn their power off so the radio would shut off. even if it was just for a few minutes. i could always go back and keep turning it off till they get the picture. well my fingers are going numb and that makes it really hard to type so this would be farewell for now...